I am

I am afraid of facing the true thing fot me.
in the childhood,I was afraid of watching my face on a mirror because I thought I was ugly.
so I could not watch my real looks so that I became ugly more and more.

now I put money to stock markets and the pefomance is so bad.
I do not see my sheet of it much.

I realize that I am not good to accept real things myself.
I need braveness to face them and take a start.